Ahoy! This is the Weekly Churn, where every Sunday I post about what I’ve been reading, watching, and thinking about over the previous week.
I’m in Nova Scotia right now visiting my father. His health has not been good and he’s having some tests done in Halifax next week. This sort of thing would not have been a source of anxiety for me a year ago—not a significant source of anxiety, anyway. After my mother’s death following routine gall bladder surgery last fall I’ve become extremely paranoid about medical matters, and even little things can make me very upset. To give you an idea of what I mean, the first time my partner got a cold after my mother died I cried for like an hour because I was suddenly terrified that she would die, too. It’s a special kind of helplessness. On top of this anxiety about my father’s health I’ve spent the last couple of weeks battling an intense renewed depression about my mother’s death. Anyway, it’s been a very interesting week outside of these personal issues, but I find myself a little pre-occupied. Next week I will tell you all about the Block Sidewalk meeting I attended, my fantasy baseball team, some television shows, books, and other things, but for this week I just need to focus on keeping my shit together and being present for my dad.
That’s all for this week. Thanks for reading!